David Matthews lay on his king-sized bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep as he stared at the ceiling for hours. Scenes from the theater kept looping in his mind like a broken record, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't escape them. He was a grown man, yet he found himself attracted to his daughter's best friend. It felt completely wrong, but resisting the desire running through his veins was pointless. He was aware of it and despised himself for feeling this way.
A soft knock on his door jolted him out of his self-loathing spiral. "Dad?" Jade's muffled voice seeped through the wood. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah, sure," he said, quickly averting his eyes to the door as she entered. His heart pounded against his chest as he feigned casualness, tucking his phone under his pillow. "What's up, Jade? It's pretty late, isn't it?"
Jade, still in her oversized hoodie and pajama pants, sat on the edge of his bed, a million thoughts flickering in her eyes. "I... I can't sleep." She picked at a loose thread on her pants, unable to meet his gaze. "I... um... I saw you, Dad."
The blood drained from David's face as the weight of her words settled in. His heart raced even faster now, the adrenaline surging through his veins. "You saw... what?" he asked, feigning ignorance.
"Come on, Dad," Jade huffed, finally meeting his eyes with an unusual fire in hers. "I saw you... with her." Jade's cheeks flushed a deep shade of crimson, but she didn't look away. "Lexi. I saw what she was doing with her... Inside your pants."
The charge in the air was so thick it could choke a man, and David found himself at a loss for words for once in his life. He opened and closed his mouth, trying to formulate a response, any response that could possibly explain away his actions, but in the end, he knew there were no words that could ever justify what he'd done.
"Jade... I..." he started, but his voice trailed off pathetically. "I don't know what to say," he admitted finally, running a hand through his hair in frustration. "I messed up, kiddo. I really did."
Jade's lower lip trembled, and her eyes glistened with unshed tears. "I... I don't... I just..." she stuttered, at a loss for words. "I thought I knew who you were, Dad," she finally managed to say, her voice thick with betrayal and disappointment.
David's chest constricted as he looked at his daughter's pain etched across her face. "I know, Jade. I know," he said, his own voice cracking. "And I'm so sorry I ruined that image for you." He reached out to comfort her, but she flinched and scooted away from him on the bed.
"Don't!" she cried out, swiping at her eyes with the sleeve of her hoodie. "I can't... I just... I need to process this, Dad," she said, her voice cracking. She shot him one last devastated look before scrambling to her feet and bolting out of the room, slamming the door behind her.
David lay there, staring at the closed door long after she'd gone. He felt like the scum of the earth, and he knew he deserved every ounce of her contempt. He'd betrayed her trust in the worst possible way, and now their already fractured relationship hung by a thread.
He sighed, rolling over onto his side, and stared at the ceiling once more. Sleep evaded him for hours as he repeated their conversation in his mind, recalling her shattered expression every time. Sleep, when it finally came, was fitful and filled with erotic dreams that left him waking up in a cold sweat, tangled in his sheets. The sun had barely risen when David sat up in bed, wiping the sweat from his brow. The residual images of his dreams were still fresh in his mind, and he cursed under his breath as he glanced at the clock. It was after 9:00 AM, and he'd overslept.
Throwing on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt, he crept downstairs to make himself some coffee, hoping not to wake anyone else up in the process. The house was uncharacteristically quiet, and for a moment, he wondered if Jade had gone out for a run without waking him up. But then he remembered their conversation from last night, and the weight of guilt settled heavily on his chest once more.
As he waited for the coffee machine to whir to life, David leaned against the counter, trying to make sense of the chaos swirling in his mind. His eyes fell on the countertop, where Jade had left a simple note in her neat, precise handwriting. Two words that sent a knife through his heart: "Gone. Talk later." No mention of when "later" would be or how he was supposed to navigate this newfound minefield in their relationship.
He crushed the note in his fist and forcefully shoved it into the trash can, his reflection in the kitchen window staring back with intense disdain, a shadow of the confident man he used to be. A man who had his desires under control. A man who didn't betray his own desires by sleeping with his daughter's best friend or indulging in fantasies of Jade. He had to believe he was more than just this primal need, right?
David downed his coffee scalding hot, not caring about the pain that seared his tongue and throat. He needed to feel something other than the hollow ache in his chest. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt this low, this utterly destroyed by his own actions. Even the divorce from Jade's mother hadn't left him feeling so empty, so adrift.
As he stared out the kitchen window, watching the leaves rustle in the autumn breeze, David Matthews knew one thing for certain: he had a long road ahead of him if he ever hoped to repair the damage he'd done to his relationship with Jade. And even then, he wasn't sure if she'd ever be able to look at him the same way again. With a sigh, he set about cleaning up his messy dishes, his heart heavy with regret and an inescapable sense of loss.
Upon hearing the front door open, he hurried to greet his daughter. As soon as he saw her, he asked, "Sweetheart, can we discuss what happened yesterday?"
"I can't. I just can't do it," she said. "I called Mom, and she's coming to get me."
David's world came crashing down around him like a ton of bricks. His heart thudded painfully in his chest as the words sank in. "Wait, Jade, please," he pleaded, following her to the front door. "We can work this out, I promise. We just need to talk this through."
Jade's back stiffened, and she slammed her hand against the door, spinning around to face him. "No, Dad, we can't," she yelled, her eyes wild with fury and hurt. "I can't stay here anymore knowing what I know about you. I need some space to think, and I can't do that when I'm sleeping under the same roof as…" She trailed off, her voice catching in her throat.
David struggled to speak, his mouth opening and closing without producing any sound.
While David remained speechless, Jade's face grew stern. "And don't even think about calling or texting me. I need some space. I'll reach out when I'm ready to talk." With those words, she marched out, slamming the door behind her with force. The house plunged into a heavy silence that felt unfamiliar and stifling to David.
He sank down on the couch, running his hands over his face, trying to comprehend the depth of the mess he'd created. His own daughter had just uttered words he never thought he'd hear: she needed space from him, her own father. He felt like a complete and utter failure. A wave of despair washed over him, threatening to drown him in its wake.
The days that followed were some of the most agonizing in David Matthews' life. He needed to feel something other than the hollow ache in his chest. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt this low, utterly destroyed by his own actions. Even the divorce from Jade's mother hadn't left him feeling so empty, so adrift.
A car door slammed shut, jolting David from his thoughts as he stood at the kitchen counter, chopping vegetables for their weekly spaghetti night. Two weeks had passed since their ill-fated movie outing, and as much as he tried to push the inappropriate thoughts from his mind, they continued to surface unbidden. He was just chopping a bell pepper when she entered the kitchen, wearing a skintight minidress that clung to her every curve, the hem ending dangerously high above her knees.
"Hey, Dad," she purred, her voice a smoky rasp that sent shivers down his spine. "You didn't expect me to dress up just for you, did you?" A coy smile played on her lips as she sauntered over to him, her hips swaying with each step. David swallowed hard; his eyes transfixed on the way her hips swayed with every step she took. "Uh, hi Jade... you uh, you look... nice," he stammered, his voice wavering as he diverted his gaze back to the cutting board. The knife in his hand trembled ever so slightly as he continued chopping the bell pepper, but Jade's presence was all-consuming.
"Thanks, Dad," she purred, running a finger down his arm as she reached for a glass from the cupboard. Her fingertips left a trail of electricity in their wake, and David's body tensed in response. "Can I help with anything?" she asked innocently, but the glint in her eyes told a different story.
"Um, actually," he cleared his throat, "you can set the table?
Jade's eyes sparkled with mischief as she sauntered over to the dining area, her hips swaying seductively. David couldn't help but steal glances at her, admiring her heart-shaped bottom as she bent over to set the table. He reminded himself he was her father, and this was wrong on so many levels, but the flames of desire within him burned hotter with each passing second.
"Dad," Jade drawled as she lazily twirled a strand of her hair around her finger, "can I ask you something?"
"Y-yes, Jade," he managed to say, still chopping vegetables with more force than necessary.
"It's about, you know..." she lowered her voice to a whisper, "What I saw you doing with Lexi."
David's heart skipped a beat, and he almost dropped the knife. He took a deep breath, trying to steady his trembling hands. "Jade, we don't need to talk about that," he said, his voice barely above a whisper.
"No. I… I need to know something," she said, her eyes wide and earnest, her voice tinged with urgency. Her brows furrowed slightly, and there was a palpable sincerity in her gaze, as if the question she was about to ask held the weight of the world. "Do you love her?"
David hesitated, the knife in his hand hovering above the cutting board. He could feel Jade's gaze on him, waiting for an answer. "No, Jade," he stammered, his mind racing. "It's complicated."
Jade took a step closer to him, her eyes never leaving his face. "How so?" she asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
David gulped; his throat parched. "Because," he paused, his voice just a whisper. "Because it was wrong, and I was too weak to prevent her from doing what you witnessed."
Jade smiled slyly, her face pensive. "I understand. But what if it didn't seem wrong?" she murmured softly. "What if it actually felt right?"
David's heart pounded in his chest as he processed Jade's words. He opened his mouth to respond, but before he could respond, his daughter said, "Can I ask you another question?"
"Uh, okay, Jade," David responded, his voice raspy as he continued cutting, giving himself a moment to gather his thoughts. "What do you want to ask next?"
"It's about... you know..." she lowered her voice to a whisper, "boys."
David almost sliced his finger off in surprise.
David looked at her, his green eyes widening in shock. "Boys?" he repeated, trying to keep his voice level. "What about them?" He turned around and leaned against the counter, pretending to wipe his hands on a dish towel, but really just needed something to support himself against.
Jade blushed, averting her gaze. "Well, it's just... I... I...," she stammered, trailing off. David's heart raced as he tried to process why his daughter would be asking him about boys, let alone in this particular moment.
"Go on, honey," he said, forcing himself to sound reassuring, "It's okay, you can tell me anything you know that, right?" He gestured for her to sit at the kitchen island, both perching on stools as they faced each other. The proximity was intoxicating and unnerving at the same time.
Jade took a deep breath. "Okay, well, it's just... I... I..." she started again before taking another deep breath, "I really like this guy." The words tumbled out of her mouth in a rush, and she blushed a deep crimson color. David's heart rate slowed slightly, realizing this conversation might not be about them but instead about her love life.
"That's... that's great, Jade," he said lamely, trying to hide his relief. "Tell me more about him."
"Well, uh, he's... actually quite a bit older than me!"
David's eyebrow arched in mild surprise, but he quickly brushed it off with a small chuckle. "Well, age is just a number, right? As long as you're both happy and respectful of each other's boundaries, that's all that matters," he said, recalling his own failed marriage due to trust issues and infidelity.
Jade bit her lower lip, her eyes briefly darting down to the countertop before meeting his again. "Actually, Dad... it's more... complicated than that." She hesitated, twisting her hands in her lap as if she were about to confess to a grievous sin.
"Complicated? How so?" David asked, his unease growing by the second. The chopping of the vegetables had stopped long ago, the only sound in the room now being their erratic breathing and the ticking of the clock on the wall. The tension between them was palpable, like a tangible presence in the room.
"Dad, I... I've been having these... feelings," Jade began, her cheeks flushing an even deeper shade of red as she struggled to find the words. David's stomach clenched into a knot, a creeping dread filling him from within. "Feelings for... for someone..." she trailed off, her eyes locking onto his.
The room seemed to freeze as the gravity of her words sank in. David's heart pounded in his ears, and he felt dizzy with both desire and disbelief. He knew where this conversation was headed, but part of him still clung to denial, praying that he had misunderstood her intentions.
"Jade," he began, his voice shaking ever so slightly, "what... what are you trying to say?" He stood up from his stool, his hands gripping the counter for support. "Jade, you can't mean..."
Jade met his gaze head-on, her blue eyes filled with equal parts longing and trepidation. "I've been thinking about... about us... since that night at the movies," she whispered, her voice barely a whisper. "I couldn't stop picturing Lexi and you like that. But then, the more I thought about it, the more I realized. It wasn't hurt I was feeling, it was jealousy. I was jealous of what you both were doing.
David felt like the world around them had slowed down, the room spinning wildly as they danced around their taboo desires.
"Jade," he started, choking on the words as he tried to formulate a response, "this... this is wrong, we can't... we're..."
"I know, Dad," she interrupted, her lower lip quivering ever so slightly. "Believe me, I know it's wrong. But these feelings... I can't control them anymore." Jade's voice trembled, a mix of fear and longing in her eyes as she searched his face for understanding
David was torn between his fatherly duty to set boundaries and his own growing, unspoken desires. He had always been the one to fix things, to make everything right, but this time, there seemed to be no easy solution. The tension in the room was thick enough to choke on as they stared at each other across the kitchen counter.
"Jade," he started, his voice gravelly with emotion, "this can't be... we can't..." He trailed off, at a loss for words. At that moment, all the rules and expectations that had governed their relationship seemed to crumble like sandcastles under the relentless tide of their shared desire. A silent understanding passed between them, and in a moment that felt both eternal and fleeting, they both knew that they were about to cross a line of no return.
Jade was the first to move. She stood up from her stool and walked towards him, her hips swaying in that familiar, enticing way. David's resolve crumbled like a sandcastle against the onslaught of his own lustful thoughts as she stood before him, her blue eyes reflecting both trepidation and longing. He reached out to cup her cheek, marveling at the softness of her skin under his calloused hand.
"We... we shouldn't," he said, the words sounding hollow even to his own ears. Jade closed her eyes, her breath heavy against his cheek as she leaned into his touch. The scent of her perfume, sweet and intoxicating, flooded his senses, and he was powerless to resist any longer.
"I know," Jade whispered, her voice a soft caress against his skin. "But I can't... I can't stop thinking about it."
It was the final straw for both of them. David's better judgment crumbling under the weight of their shared desire, he pulled her towards him, claiming her lips in a desperate, feverish kiss. His tongue parted her lips, seeking any semblance of refuge from the storm raging within him as they kissed hungrily, as if their very lives depended on it.
Their hands moved frantically over each other's bodies, skirts hiked up, and shirts discarded on the kitchen counter. David's mind...